Every day is difficult, and Saheefa Jabbar Khattak’s open post emphasises the importance of mental wellness.

Saheefa Jabbar Khattak, a Pakistani model-turned-actor, boldly spoke on her Instagram Stories about her battles with mental health. She revealed the suffering and anguish she had been going through and said how hard it was for her to accept where she was at the moment.

Saheefa underlined that having financial items does not ensure pleasure while acknowledging the absence of empathy in the world. She emphasised the need of providing self-care, love, and empathy as food for the soul. She expressed thanks for the support she has gotten, especially from her husband, while acknowledging her own personal struggle.

She said, “Yes, I haven’t been myself lately, which is very hard for me to accept here,” in her Stories. I may or may not know the specifics of what occurred, but I can’t speak about it without sobbing uncontrollably. I’m suffering, I’m mourning, and every day is difficult for me. Yes, I have given up. I do not, in fact, see the end of the tunnel. For me, everything is dismal and dark. Yes, I do yearn for my own death every day.

“In [the] past 60 days there has not been a single day when I haven’t cried or just questioned everything,” she said. I have dropped 12 kg while going through this agony and anguish. I haven’t been able to eat since it has just been impossible, and I have kept myself quite medicated so I can sleep off the agony. My family has made several attempts to assist me, but I think I must wage my struggle by myself and face my demons alone. Nobody can come and relieve my suffering on my behalf.

“I was just telling a friend (over a voice note) that I have been leaving little clues behind to let the world know (if in the process I take my life away), [the] world needs to become a kinder place,” Saheefa said in her letter. I don’t see any empathy, and it disgusts me how everything has turned into a tool for making money in some manner. The general public must also believe that I have everything (materially), so what in the world could cause her anguish or distress? I’ll tell you what, I’m typing this from a luxurious hotel in Dubai while lying in a luxurious bed, yet I’m still in excruciating agony.

“I want everyone who is reading this to know, having a nice car or a house or being able to afford anything or everything can not always assure you happiness,” she ventured in her writing. Your ultimate home is your soul, and the soul requires its very unique kind of sustenance. It (could) make you feel more at peace. Our soul doesn’t need wealth, fame, or a flashy vehicle. Our soul need affection, sympathy, and good care. I have no idea what [the] future will bring, and it goes without saying that I haven’t seen the afterlife either (yet), but according to my beliefs, whatever there is, is in the here and now, and in that here and now, I want to be satisfied, happy, and fulfilled. I need to recover. Keep your distance, Saheefa. To give up on your life would be really foolish. This will also pass. (As usual).”

The model continued by expressing gratitude to everyone who had contacted her. “To everyone who wrote me [direct messages] wishing me well, expressing concern about me, or wishing me a speedy recovery (I have read them ALL), thank you. People like you are responsible for making this planet bearable. I am very grateful for the love that each and every one of you has given. Please remember myself and my family in your prayers. Recently, I have been putting a lot of stress on my family, which is something I would never desire.

A particular word of thanks for her spouse was also shared by Saheefa. And I simply want to give my spouse a very public shoutout since I have no idea how he is doing everything by himself while living so far away. It hurts you to see your life partner daily struggles. I am aware of your helplessness and agree that it is awful. I don’t know what good I have done in my life, Khizer, to merit someone like you as a supporter.